DEAR HEART,

Do not let yourself fall for those dreams that my head tells you sometimes, because neither I can understand what they actually mean. I just want to protect you from those mistakes which I am already used to, but you are not. Maybe there will be a day where I will be able to explain you why I am so afraid of letting you get hurt, even when you prove me that you can be stronger than me.

Oh my dear heart, how I wished to trust them as much as you do, and all the reasons why I do not, are to try to keep you away from some ugly scars.

And, yet, my brain keeps thinking about him when I am sleeping, and I still have no idea why. So, please keep yourself out of this, I can handle it.

Nulla Succede Per Caso!

6.30am. If there was no delay and everything went as planned, I'm flying right now. Literally. Next stop: Milan!

"Nothing happens by chance!" - This quote started making sense in my life a few years ago with the person who, in a few hours, will also fly to the same destination.

It's been 2 years since I took a plane from Lisbon to start a new chapter in Liverpool, and now here I am again in the clouds. This time it is only for a weekend (extended), but with many adventures in sight.
If nothing happens by chance there will certainly be a reason to be travelling again exactly 2 years after one of the biggest changes of my (can I still say short?) life, but that I will know in the right time when I'll have to connect the points. The date, this one was chosen by me completely at random and only later I realized the "coincidence", but let's start at the beginning.

One day when I was bathing (where the most stupid, or extraordinary, ideas come from, depends on the point of view) I thought that travelling with two of my friends who have been with me since always could be a very beautiful way to keep us connected. Since I came to Liverpool, Sofia went to Rotterdam and Claudia stayed in Lisbon, we seem to be always in different ways. When I go to Lisbon Sofia is coming back to Rotterdam, or Claudia is going somewhere else so we are never together individually, not even speaking in being the 3 of us together.
I had the responsibility of choosing a city, a date and dealing with everything and so I did. I looked for something that was common for the three, since each one would go from different places and within the options was: Milan, May 5-8. We all had a good feeling about this one, even being a surprise for them at the begining.

Mentioning with a colleague, and saying in English the date on which I was travelling, I realized that it was the same date that I arrived here. I smiled. He said "Maybe you’ll live there too!" It's not in my plans, but it's funny, isn’t it?

Unfortunately Sofia could not come, but I'm sure there will be many more flights coming for us! After all nulla succede per caso!

Ciao

DEAR WORLD,

I always felt that you were too big for us to stay in the same place for too long.

Maybe it is just my Portuguese soul that makes me look for the unknown with curiosity instead of being afraid, and I can say that because of it I had the chance to travel and live in places that sometimes have showed me different realities when compared with the one I grow up in, but they also made me met people as good as the ones I grow up with.

Bold, I have never looked to you as a closed place! You always invited us to discover and rediscover you as many times as we wanted to. Unfortunately, it is us, the only living beings to the ones who was given the power of reason, who, in order to chase more power and money, keeps claiming your territories as if our roots could have borders.

Travelling into you makes me even most conscientious that I am more than the ethnic cross that defines me in the records that I have to fill in every time I have to apply for a job, a university, or an ID. Every time I have to choose if I am a white British, an Asian, African or other. And it is definitely a beautiful way of breaking those differences that persist in emerging,

It is not the place where you came from that defines you, but how you deal with the borders that surround you.

LISBON, PORTUGAL

BE COLOURFUL #2

By Mom to Mom with a daughter touch.

Always put some colour in your life!

BE COLOURFUL

What I like most in spring it is the colours. The green comes back to the trees, with a little bit of pink and white, yellow in the flowers on the floor and in the sun that's playing "peekaboo" with the clouds in the sky that's already more blue.  

The jewellery box was made by my mom, decorated by me and inspired by spring colours.

Oh and never forget... =P

DEAR ME,

You have always loved to make plans, and so it was inevitable to plan and establish goals to yourself ever since you were growing. The amazing thing is that life keeps challenging and presenting you opportunities that somehow you couldn’t have ever planned. That is what you love most in this amazing thing we call living: no matter how or what you try to plan, somewhere, somehow, there’s something already meant to be, and there’s always a reason for whatever happens to you.

Good or bad, keep in mind that you don’t constantly need to have a middle ground. You are most of the time the 8 or the 80 and there is nothing wrong with that.  Even knowing that some days you put everything in question, deep down you know that you love the adrenaline of the highs and the calm of the lows. I am sure you wouldn’t bear out to live in a straight line because that only means that you’re not longer living.

I don’t know what is coming next for you. I will not make promises and shouldn’t do you either, but I will assure that you will always put your best in whatever you will do, because that’s who you are. Know also that whatever comes next it should always come from your heart, that’s always the right starting point for a good direction.

Life will continue guiding you just never forget to trust yourself.